Let me start by telling you that I thought day 3 was the worst… but BOY WAS I WRONG! Today I am feeling mentally and physically exhausted. I certainly don’t want to bring anyone down because this is ultimately a story of hope and triumph, but I planned from the start to be brutally honest about the whole process from day 1 to day 30. So, my truth today is that of frustration, anxiety and depression. If I could stay in bed all day, I would! I tend to want to be angry with God for putting so much on my plate that life won’t allow me to be a ‘couch potato.’ But since anger is just a secondary emotion, I realize my true feelings are only filled with fear that I won’t make it through another day of this challenge.
Today I will keep reminding myself that FAITH wins over FEAR! Positive reinforcements from yourself or others are critical. A perfect example: During the Crossfit WOD, I was nearing completion of the 20 minute workout and doing the last round of push presses. With arms shaking from complete muscle failure and 10 push presses to go, one by one, I lift that bar over my head. Mark (one of the Crossfit trainers) is right in my ear, telling me “You can do this” “You got this” “Only 10 to go” “Don’t give up.” Because of the positive reinforcement, I found the strength and blasted through those last reps.
Another exciting point to mention today is that my digestive system seems to be working the way it was intended. I haven’t popped a tums since I started my challenge, unlike the old days when I couldn’t eat without some type of antacid before or after the meal. My girlfriend, who had pizza and chicken wings for dinner last night, was feeling the familiar rumble in the tummy after she ate. At that moment, I was truly grateful for this diet.
Food for the day
Breakfast: none (oops)
Lunch: grilled sausage, peppers & onions
Dinner: 3 scrambled eggs with onions, chicken sausage patties with mustard, pineapple
Snack: hard boiled eggs, strawberries
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